Discombobulate: verb  To confuse or disconcert, upset, frustrate.

Discombobulated:  adv.  (see above)

Today I am feeling discombobulated.  No real reason.  I had a good night's sleep with no waking up at 2 and not falling back to sleep.  I think part of it is feeling so helpless.  Peter Kevin is one of 7 siblings.   He has 5 sisters and a brother-all mostly older.

4 of the 7 are fighting some form of cancer (which both of his parents had. genetics is real, yo)  Last night he found out (well, had his suspicions confirmed) that 3 of his siblings are actively fighting for their lives.  He is so sad and feeling so helpless that it makes me feel helpless because I cannot help him.  All I can do is be there.  And I am a Helper gosh darnit.  I can't stand to not help.  This reality has been in the background for a long time but now it's pushing its way forward and forcing us to confront our (and everyone else's) mortality.  

This is not conducive to a house filled with Christmas spirit.  But we try.

So, what have I been up to?  (I can hear you asking)  I'll show you.

Starting with work.

This was the pile of charts I needed last Monday.  Just for Monday.  That represents a morning clinic and an afternoon clinic following right on its heels.  And yes, it's a lot of charts.  In about a month, we will be 90% electronic records so I will not have to schlep these heavy suckers around.

There was a 27 pound turkey that cooked up beautifully.  Looks like it could be a magazine spread.  The most important part was that it tasted good.  Since we went out on Turkey Day, we cooked our

bird the Saturday after.  We have 2 ready to pop into the oven meals consisting of stuffing and turkey in the freezer waiting for a hectic holiday night.

There was Exploding Tardis yarn.  It is a soft and squooshy as it looks and it sparkles.  All it needs is a bath and it will become a scarf fo me or a pair of mitts.  It was a birthday gift from Peter Kevin.  It was so much fun to spin!  And so well prepared.  I got it from the Classy Squid on Etsy.

We have mincemeat pie and Christmas lights (Pk wants one of those laser light projectors.  So far, I have managed to hold out but he's being pretty persuasive)

I have finished my Christmas socks for Pk and the girls.  My sons in law do not wear socks if they can help it.  I am working on some hats for them.  But they have to be special because these young men are special.

There are lots of things going on that make these days happy but there is one extra special thing happening.

PK AND I ARE GOING TO BE GRANDPARENTS!!  Katie is having a baby in June.  We couldn't be happier.  Our little family is growing by leaps and bounds.  (Can you tell we're pleased?)

I am going to try to keep this up in a more timely manner but who knows what the next two weeks will bring.  

Hang in there!  Christmas will be here before you know it.