Ok, all together now, breathe in, breathe out. Deep, full breaths. Yes, for the first time in 4 weeks I feel like I can breathe (when my eyes aren't filling up with tears, that is).
Em's tumor is benign. At least that's what they're saying at this point. There is a small chance it's a form of cancer but it seems to be contained and it can be removed. It WILL be removed as soon as she gets an appointment with a surgeon. You know, life is never smooth. There are ups and downs and sometimes it feels like it's just downs and more downs. This past month has been one long breath-holding waiting period. And now, finally, the news is positive. That sound you hear is my heart as it starts beating normally again.
Thank you all so very much for the support and love. It has made this a little easier knowing all the positive energy that has flown our way. Surgery isn't fun but at least there is a plan and Em can look forward to getting back to her normal (or what passes for normal in her world) life. And I can go back to my normal life. But things won't be the same. I won't take things like health for granted. I've felt like we've lived a charmed life in that department with only minor things going wrong. But that feeling is gone. I feel vulnerable and it'll take some time to get over that.
Kate is coming in to Philadelphia to have lunch with me today. I'm looking forward to that. If we're lucky, Pk will be able to come and have lunch with us. If not, we'll wing it. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend full of laughter and joy.