Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Small cut. Need I say more?

We got there this morning to learn that there had been an emergency and Em's surgery was pushed back. So, we sat and talked with her and Jim for four hours until they came and took her away.

At this point, we were taken to the cafeteria/waiting area. We were told there would be updates as soon as they could tell us anything. Jim and Pk stalked out an outlet so Jim was playing computer games while I knitted and Pk read. All too soon, the assistant came out to say Em was done. We expected 6 and 1/2 hours but it was only 2.

I cried. The stress came pouring out of my eyes and down my face. I know Em is ok but I couldn't help the tears. The alien baby is attached to Em's spine and they biopsied all around it so they can make sure that there is no chance of cancer. The surgeon said, "we have to be careful that there are no cells left that might grow or spread". I get it. I really do but now we wait for another week for results and do this all over again. Or we wait and go through 6 weeks of radiation and then surgery.

Em is upset. She is in pain and has a chest tube (which can't be comfortable) and an epidural. They're keeping her overnight and then she'll come home tomorrow. I cried when I saw her which made her cry. She's so tired....

We stayed in the ICU for a little while but there is really not room in there so Pk and I came home and left the space for Jim. It was hard to walk away from my baby but there was really nothing I could do and she needs to rest, not entertain us.

I don't know what else to say. I'm worn out. I'll update you all as soon as there is news either way.

14 comments:

amy said...

Oh Donna Lee. I'm so sorry. In a heartbeat I would rather be in pain myself than see my child in pain. My heart is with you.

Bells said...

Hang in there guys. this is big stuff so hold onto each other and take it one step at a time. Biggest hugs to you all.

I've shed a tear over my cup of tea. Thinking of you all, esp Em.
xo

Geek Knitter said...

Still keeping you all close in my heart. Be strong. Love to you all, and peace like a river through your soul.

Rose Red said...

Oh Donna Lee, I'm so sorry to hear this. Big hugs to you and PK and Em and Jim and the girls. Sending lots of strong thoughts to you all over the ocean. Hope the knitting is helping and hope you can get some sleep.

Galad said...

I'm with Bells - hold on tight to each other and know how many invisible hugs you are getting!

SwissKnits! said...

I am praying for all of you...
really hard..
Hugs
&
Prayers

Cathy {tinniegirl} said...

Sending you lots of thoughts and healing energy.

Georgie said...

Donna Lee, I'm so very sorry to hear this. You and PK and Em and Jim and the girls are all in my thoughts and heart. Keep each other close and know that there are thoughts and prayers for you from all over. Big hugs to you all. xox

MadMad said...

Oh, honey, I can't even imagine your pain and stress. This must be beyond difficult. I will keep you all in my thoughts and hope for quick healing!

Olivia said...

Oh it's so frustrating. The uncertainty and all the steps still to go through... but you'll get there. I hope you can find some extra strength and comfort in all these virtual hugs coming your way.

Amy Lane said...

Oh baby--I was so thinking of you all day--((hugs))) and prayers to you and yours. (I'm sure the knitting kept you sane... I know it would be all I had if I were in your spot...)

Bezzie said...

Get some sleep momma, you'll both feel better in the morning!

Dianne said...

Small cut, crap! I'm so sorry. I can't beleive there is more waiting...waiting...waiting. Sending virtual hugs to all.

teabird said...

I'm so, so sorry. I was so hoping this would be over.

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